Healing... and Hurting

What do I do
now that you're gone?

Well, when there's
nothing else going on,
which is quite often,
I sit in a corner and
I cry until I am
too numbed
to feel.

Paralyzed, motionless
for awhile, nothing
moving
inside or out.

Then I think
how much I miss you.

Then I feel
fear
pain
loneliness
desolation.

Then
I cry
until I am
too numbed
to feel.

Interesting pastime.